Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Multiple Updates

Farewell Online Poker

Let's backtrack up to this decision.  Last week I was able to get out of the house. I spent money, played some slots, played some video poker, played a few tournaments at Sam's Town and cashed in a couple of them, and had fun getting out for the first time in several months. It was so enjoyable that when I tried to return back to online, whatever small appeal that it may have had previously, was gone. Because of that, because of getting out to Sam's Town definitely stoked the fire for live play, and because of the fact that my disability is increasing because of the widower's benefit that came through, I have decided that I will be getting out of the house more  and I will be restricting my poker to live play only.

Longtime readers of this blog will recall that I have tried to do this a few times in the past, but then again that was before the increase in the disability and let's face it, although I did try previously with just a few buyins here and there I always had to return to online. This is not to say that I am going to have an overabundance of money each month, only a few hundred dollars which I will explain the financial situation in the next paragraph, but I will be getting back into the free Nevada Poker Bar League again and playing that a couple of times a week in which they have a fairly significant freeroll every 6 to 8 weeks or so, and playing tournaments at Sam's Town maybe a half a dozen times a month and if I happen to cash in them I will be playing more of them.

No matter how you look at it even though I don't get around very well I will be getting out more and I think that is more healthy for me. Yes, I may have to stop and rest every block that I walk, and just to get from the bus stop to get across the street I may have to stop and catch my breath a couple of times, but at least I will be out there socializing with other human beings and to me this can only be good for me not only psychologically speaking but who knows maybe physically as well, that remains to be seen.

Financial Update

As stated earlier beginning November 3rd my disability will be going from $829 to $1,425 an increase of $596. I will not be able to enjoy that entire amount because I found out that with the increase in income my medical expenses will be increasing by approximately $234 per month. That $1,425 will actually be $1,291 because the first $134 will be taken out to pay for my Medicare Part B premium. My prescriptions will be going from $8 to $47 each so it is what it is. I will be increasing my food budget slightly,  increasing my credit card payments by a small amount, and I will be buying a monthly bus pass from now on because I also found out I can never drive an automobile again. In order to get a license in the state of Nevada you have to have vision of 20/40 in at least one eye and I have 20/60 in one eye and 20/200 in the other.  Anyway here's the rundown of the finances as they will be.

($455) Rent & Dish/Wifi
($171) Bills
($260) Meds/Walmart
($45) Monthly Transportation
($60) Misc
$300 left over/monthly

I'm  thinking of discontinuing one of the inhalers that my pulmonologist has me on because it only increase my breathing capacity by 5% over the span of three months and quite frankly $50 a pop per month is not worth it for 5%. If I do so that $300 will increase to $350 left over except once every few months I have to get my rescue inhaler. With my new Part C insurance that is taking effect in November I have to find a new pulmonologist because my current one is not part of the network. This does not exactly  break my heart because I was considering  finding a new anyway. However, I digress. As you can see with $300 a month left over and transportation already taken care of except for those instances where I decide you utilize Lyft to get me home from Sam's Town or some midway point that would leave me definitely 6 tournaments a month that I could play at Sam's Town. You have to figure that I am going to spend a few dollars at my league games if for nothing else than to have a drink while I'm there.

On a good note the increased medical expenses will not take place in November and they might not even take place in December but nothing is sure that latter point, but at least for November I am going to have a decent amount of extra money for myself and I am going to utilize that specifically.  for November I should have about $600 left over and I am getting a new prescription of eyeglasses and also buying myself a new Galaxy J3 cell phone. I'm going to meet up with a friend of mine who I have chatted with for a couple of years that lives here in Vegas but we have never met in person yet and we are planning on grabbing some dinner and a movie together so that should be enjoyable as well.

Disability Update

I received an update form from Social Security asking if my medical situation has remained the same, improved, or gotten worse since October of 2015. My health situation has gotten worse, but these update forms are always a little nerve-wracking because disability companies and Social Security has a habit at times of not taking all available information and making snap decisions without all the facts. I've got a friend of mine sometime back had a good portion of their disability taken away, but it was because the disability company they are involved with had only talked to one or two of their doctors and not all of them. They were able to get it straightened out, but it took nearly two months in the process. If that happens to me I'm going to be homeless and sleeping outside because I don't have any money in reserve to get me through a few months of the process like that. I did a little Google search and according to Social Security only 2.5% of those update forms get referred for a full I think they called it a CDR review and considering that I am going to be 50 years old very soon and they can see the doctors that I'm seeing and because quite frankly they been paying for it I don't think I have too much to be worried about but let's all keep our fingers crossed that they don't do something stupid.

I'm always a person that likes to prepare himself for the worst-case eventualities and I talked to my buddy and roommate ManInBlack about the whole thing. I had asked him, if God forbid the worst case scenario were to happen and I ended up getting my disability discontinued for awhile and ended up having to lose my spot in the house and sleep outsidefor a while if he could stash some of my stuff in his room. Things that I wouldn't carry around in a backpack like files, extra clothing, pillows and blankets, that sort of thing.

I told my bestie and roommate ManInBlack about what was happening and what the situation could result in and I did so because I wanted to ask him a favor that if that did in fact become my reality if I could stash some things of mine in his room that I would not be able to carry around with me on a daily basis in a backpack. My thought was my files and extra clothes that I would not be able to take with me, blankets, pillows, that sort of thing and fully expected for him to tell me that he would be willing to do this. However, instead he looked at me and he said to me,

"You know if anything like that were to happen there's no way I'm going to let you sleep outside. I would lend you the $400 a month rent that you need for however long it took until things got straightened out."

You could have knocked me over with a feather. Never before in my life has somebody offered to potentially help me in such a way. I was almost speechless, could barely utter the words thank you, and damn near had a tear come to my eye that's how I moved I was. I still can't believe that if that situation were to happene that somebody would be willing to do that for me. I don't even feel I'm worth such generosity, but let me tell you something ladies and gentlemen, that is one hell of a friend.

Medical Update

As for the medical part unfortunately the fact of the matter is I have gotten worse since October of 2015. Since that time my breathing capacity has gotten worse and last appointment with the pulmonologist I was only at 67% of capacity.  I also need to see a heart doctor because I am experiencing a lot of heart palpitations at various times with intermittent PVCs, preventricular contractions. I could just be laying down ready to go to sleep and the inside of my chest feels like it's shuddering and in addition any exertion is racing my heart in what's called tachycardia so a cardiologist is going to be in my somewhat near future. Of course if you put me on a medication that will be an additional $50 a month and which case I'm definitely just continue in that one and they are just to even things out.

I saw a back surgeon and he told me that yes I am going to need back surgery in the future, but we're not going to do it now. He also told me I have to lose a lot of weight before I could have any type of surgery, but I have what is called grade 1 anterolisthesis of the vertebrae L5 on S1.  What it means is my L5 vertebrae is slowly slipping. When the surgeon took one look at the MRI, even though it's 14 months old, he told me straight out you cannot walk very far and you cannot stand for very long at all. I didn't even have to tell him he told me what I was going through.

I also have a bulging disc on vertebra L4 through L5.  which means A spinal disorder in which a bone (vertebra) slips forward onto the bone below it and I have a grade 1 spondylolisthesis of L5 on S1 resulting in moderate to severe bilateral neuralforaminal stenosis which means severe foraminal narrowing, or stenosis, occurs when the foraminal canal — the space next to the vertebrae that allows the nerve roots to exit the spinal canal — narrows due to age or another spine condition that has protruded into the empty space of the canal. Gee...... thrilling.  Along with arthritis in my knees and shoulders and a torn right shoulder, the surgeon told me that I have arthritis in that lower back and one of the vertebrae is pressing against the nerve. Man I'm telling you this guy was nothing but a barrel of laughs with his medical report, but as I have said many times in the past and it may be an overused expression, but it is what it is and all I can do is try to deal with anything that comes my way. I refuse to surrender, I refuse to give up, and I refuse to let anything keep me down permanently. 

After talking with some cousins on Facebook it turns out that early-onset arthritis apparently is something that runs in the family. The body may be giving me fits but my mind is still ultra sharp and I think poker has a ton to do with it as a matter of fact I think I read one place that poker players have a lower incidence of dementia and Alzheimer's but I can't swear to that. However if true it does make all the sense in the world and the fact that my mind is as sharp as it is is something I am extraordinarily thankful for.

Well that's a wrap up for now. I'm going to be starting my league games this upcoming Thursday and I will start playing Sam's Town on Wednesday the 4th unless I need to rest up from activities on the 3rd. The fact of the matter is when I go out for a day or two sometimes I need to rest and relax for the next couple of days this is why only playing half a dozen tournaments a month is not any great hardship to me because it's not surprising if my body won't allow me to play more than that. Maybe it will maybe it won't, but we will see what there is to see. I'm actually looking forward to getting out and about again and dealing with real people again in-person socializing.  I mean we as human beings we are social creatures and being locked up in my room for the last couple of years was not healthy, but it was the only real choice I had considering the money available. That's all for now.  I will definitely update you sometime in the beginning to middle of November I would imagine so until then take care everyone and I'll see you at the tables.

Friday, September 29, 2017

Ready For October

Overall my cash game experiment was a success. I played them online for over a month and in excess of 25,000 hands and ended up making in the neighborhood of $70 or $80 in earnings, but with massive massive swings sometimes 5 buyins in a single session. As usual, and this was no surprise, I find the cash games very boring at times and have to have a tournament also being played in order to even remotely stay focused on these cash games. I know it doesn't make a whole hell of a lot of sense, but if I have a tournament going it makes playing the cash games at least bearable because without the tournament going, quite frankly, they practically would put me right to sleep.

I did prove to myself that returning to my style of play would lead to earnings. The earn rate that I made in those 25,000 hands of so was not huge, but with the fluctuations of variance it would go high then it would come down, go high, come down, go high, come down, and you need 100,000 hands to find out what your true earn rate is if for no other reason so the earn rate numbers aren't going up and down by factors of god-knows-what with every session.  I don't care for No Limit cash games, as I stated in the previous paragraph they bore me to tears, but the fact of the matter is that if I am able to earn money from doing it then it's something that I need to do because by not doing it, it's going to take me longer to get to my next goal.

I guess we should touch on that. My current goal is an account balance of $1,200. If I can obtain that then I will withdraw $600 and go see what some live play offers thus keeping $600 online which is 100 buyins for the $3 deepstack rebuys, and/or 60 buyins for the $10NL cash games, and/or 30 buyins for the $20NL cash games.  Pick one or all of the above because they all apply. Withdrawing $600 and heading out for live play will give me the opportunity, now that Autumn is here and the cooler weather is starting to come back and I actually can get out of this house again, the opportunity for some tournaments at the Golden Nugget, maybe at tournament at Aria, some $3/$6 limit Hold'em games at various places around town or just hanging out downtown or on the Strip or whatever I want to do on any particular day.

Now for some big personal news that is going to change my life for the better in a financial way. According to the lady that I talked to at Social Security, my disability payment will be increasing beginning in November by $596 going from $829 a month to $1,425 per month. This is a huge increase for me and while I know that $600 to most people per month is absolutely nothing, to me it's immense. I am getting this because I'm qualifying for the widowers disability benefit because my wife was permanently disabled as I am and we were married for over 10 years when she passed away. The lady at Social Security told me that if I had turned 50 three months later than I do at the end of October, I would not qualify for this.

Now, this does not automatically mean I actually have $600 extra per month. Because I'm on disability as you might imagine I get certain help from the state of Nevada considering I'm only getting $829 a month and I do believe that that assistance will go bye bye. The major issue as you might suspect is medical. Right now the state of Nevada pays the Social Security Premium of about$145 a month for me. Also the co-pays for my prescriptions will go from $8.25 to about $45 a month each, but the lady at Social Security told me there may be another program to check into where I perhaps could still get assistance on the medical stuff, but even if I can't, I estimate that this will be an increase of approximately $300 a month net clear and for that I am extraordinary grateful. It turns out that my late wife left me an inheritance that she never even know about it, but I'd give up every penny in the world if I could have her back in my life again. One day we will meet again.

So I have been basically taking some time off to end September and will be picking it up again starting October 1st. I ended up making a little over $100 since my return to WSOP on what admittedly was sporadic play so I'm pretty happy about it. I am doing one more final deposit on to WSOP on the 3rd of September and after that money that I want to put towards poker will be kept offline.  I am planning on putting $80 on so that I'm essentially starting October with $350 which should be more than enough for the $10NL tables and a few of the $3 deepstack rebuys each day, but I'm making a personal rule that I have to have a bankroll above $300 to play the tournaments. The key to tournament play will obviously be earnings from the cash games. Hopefully when tournaments are going bad cash games will be going good and when cash games are going bad tournaments will be going good so that for the most part I am showing steady increases.

I will not be going out anywhere socially in October because of a lack of extra available money which as I related to you should change starting in November, but this will give me the opportunity for some serious grinding. Getting started with the 9 a.m. tournament and a couple of tables of the cash games I plan on playing from 9 a.m. to 9 p.m. at least as far as cash games go. I think 12 hours is plenty. If I go beyond 9 p.m. it's either because I'm either on very juicy cash tables or I'm still holding my own in the 7:30 p.m. $800 guaranteed tournament.

That's basically all of it in a nutshell gentle readers. Still two more days off from poker and then back to the serious grind beginning on Sunday. That's going to wrap this one up for now. Sorry I went so long in between entries, but I wanted to find out just what was going to happen with the cash games before reporting in on it. I will try to bring more entries and updates during the month of October as to how things are going. Until next time take care everyone and I'll see you at the tables.

Bankroll:  $350
Goal:  $1200
Progress:  29%

Friday, August 18, 2017

Home Again To Stay

I am back home again online poker speaking. I withdrew $160 to bitcoin which I am waiting to hit my checking account on Tuesday and I am back on WSOP again. I have come home and never to leave it for a different site again. Somebody from Twitter  who's  privacy I shall protect, offered me a PayPal loan so that I could get some money on WSOP and I have to wait till Tuesday and to this person I just want to say thank you so very much.

I just could not stand ACR anymore, but one thing I did do was make me appreciate WSOP all the more on a variety of levels the least of which would be deposits and withdrawals to say nothing about the game play nor availability and circumstances. All day and night long on Tuesday they never got one table of $10NL full ring going and they only had two tables of $5NL full ring going and never could get a third one started. Oh they had plenty of 6-max, but their full ring games were non-existent unless you wanted to play $25 or $50 tables. Their tournaments with the amount of people they pay out are freaking ridiculous.  When you compare the two sites and a $350 guaranteed prize pool on WSOP is paying more up top than a $500 guaranteed on ACR there's absolutely no question where I want to be back at. I am back on WSOP to stay. The fact that I mentioned anything or even had any knowledge about the cash tables being available and not available that obviously deserves an explanation.

This goes back to the fact that I recently purchased a new HP Stream laptop through my Fingerhut credit. As I was cleaning out the photos I had on my old laptop which I now use as a backup just in case anything were to go wrong, I came across a screenshot I had taken and although I didn't look at the precise date it must have been back in December 2015 or January or February 2016. The screenshot showed earnings of about $165 at $10NL on WSOP in 10,000 to 12,000 hands. I went back and looked at the posts that I wrote during that period of time and came across these these little gems.

"15,692 hands played and total profits at the $10NL tables of $274.62"  

"that brought me to over $308 in earnings at $10NL and thus I have now earned over 3000 big blinds at this level"

"the last 8 sessions I show earnings of $213 covering 13331 hands in a mix of $10NL and $20NL"

"table earnings at the cash games in total was $355.17"

Why after those two months did my cash game results go down the sewer. What was I doing back then that I stopped doing or that I changed??  What was different between then and almost every attempt since then. It doesn't make sense so I went into a deep deep think-tank about it and I realized what had happened was I had received multiple points of advice about playing cash games and although I was doing quite well, since cash games was not my primary forte, I went with what I felt were the thoughts and opinions of my more learned peers and I started doing things that went completely against what I felt I should be doing a not be doing and the results over the next nearly 18 months more disastrous. I won't get into details because I know people at WSOP read my blog and I will be back at those $10 tables again, but suffice it to say it involves completely opening up my range, building up parts with draw instead of playing it cool taking free card and calling certain hands raises with certain hands that completely goes against my instinct such as AXs lower than ATs.  For whatever reason, and I may just chalk it up to pure temporary insanity  with a bit of longevity to it, I continued on with this from February 2016 and for whatever reason never realizing that the changes in my game because of the advice I got and took was what put my cash game completely into the sewer.  

Don't even ask me why I never made this connection before, don't ask me why that sporadically for the next nearly 18 months every attempt at cash games was a freaking disaster and I never put two and two together before now, don't even ask me these questions because I don't know the answer. The only guess I have is that I guess maybe I'm just somebody that needs to see something in front of me before it clicks. I guess I just never thought about it and part of that reason was probably because of a lack of hand reviews on my part which should be something you're always doing when losing to find out why you lost and I have not done that much. The bottom line is the advice that I was given was dead wrong and my style of play is what works for me. It would probably be considered quite unorthodox by many of my readers who are regular cash game players and so be it. Their style of play works for them and mine works for me. The question was what would happen if I try some cash games going back to my old ways.

Before I left ACR I tried some of the cash games and I was an overall winner and about 3,000 hands believe it or not. Yeah yeah I know it's a small sample size, but it's the first time I've been in overall winner in 3000 hands and 18 months. Even though I and took a small loss at $10NL, but the primary reason for that was a few big pairs that got cracked but more importantly having Queens full of jacks against an opponent in who had flopped quads and that cost me over a full buyin, but overall going back to my style of play did turn a profit. 

I left ACR with $160 because of probably some foolishness on my part. I was hoping to build that amount up a little bit so I played a session of $0.40/$0.80 Stud8 and never saw so many draws in my life not come to fruition and I ended up dropping about 50 bucks. That was slightly painful but I decided I was taking that $160, and getting the hell out of Dodge, and going back home where I belong on WSOP. Once the money hits my account on Tuesday I will pay back my $75 loan put the rest of that transfer on WSOP and essentially even though it's not on there now I essentially started the evening of Wednesday August 16th with $150 online. It is a far cry from the thousand dollars that I had planned on waiting for, but I am glad that I did it. Being back on WSOP I am more convinced than ever I can turn this year around to a half decent profit considering the first seven and a half months have provided ($6.20) in total losses combining online and live play and $21.26 in those stupid Bitcoin fees which I will never have to worry about dealing with again. Some people may say that I never should have left WSOP in the first place, but the fact of the matter is sometimes you never know just how good you have things until you venture somewhere else.

So , I'm back home on WSOP, yada, yada, yada, but what to do now.  The minimum cost for the tournaments for me would be $6 a pop not exactly a great idea to do with only $150 which cannot be replaced until the very earliest October and I have no desire to go the next month-and-a-half watching TV and maybe playing some games on my phone on a daily basis with nothing else to do. This has to be protected. It's like John jawanda said about a big stack in a tournament it should be nurtured and treasured and protected or something along those lines that's not an exact quote, but the same thing can be said about my miniscule $150 bankroll. A plan is most definitely needed.

The smallest non-turbo non satellite tournaments now available at WSOP are the $3 deepstack rebuys which cost me $6 each so I can't play those just yet. Going back to my old style of play in cash games to be quite frankly I don't have the nerve to take $157 and risk playing $10NL without proving myself step by step so that's out. Sng's I'm not interested in because the only NLH  SNGs that seemed to go off with regularity are turbo so forget that and the other option is PLO8 SNGs which only have 8 minute blinds and do not go off enough to make it worth my while so that's out. So, what does that leave me. I hate the thought of even uttering these words, but that leaves me starting out grinding $2NL cash games. Yeah, you read that right, $2NL cash games.......... 

To be continued..........

Friday, August 11, 2017

2017...... Failures On Multiple Levels.....But It's Not Over Yet

2017 has been a colossal fail on a variety of levels both personal and poker. The poker partnership was a colossal fail. Once we made the switch over to ACR "Daniel" and I could see very early on that with the tournaments that I was able to be playing with the money that we had available it wasn't going to turn out to be anything grandiose so we decided to take the money play a couple of decent prize pool tournaments, but nothing came of them and I ended up sending him $95 back so a total loss for each of us of ($85)

Another overall failure for 2017 has been profits for the year. From January through July online earnings of $317.86 live losses of ($276) and $16 in fees from Bitcoin transactions which leaves total earnings for the year of $50.69. 7 months and $50 in earnings is unacceptable, and a colossal fail.
Then there's the health issues. The arthritis in the knees and shoulders seems to be getting more painful with each passing day, but that isn't the main issue. The colossal fail is that the breathing capacity has been diminishing this year from 76% to 73% to the last check was 62%. Because of the breathing problems the mixture of the intense heat is an almost fatal mixture for me and I am not using that term loosely. 

After an incident that happened about a month-and-a-half ago, I am basically on self-imposed exile which means I do not leave my house unless I've got a ride someplace and I do not mean a bus ride and those rides are very few and far between. For the last month-and-a-half I have been out of the house three times. Twice I was dropped off at Walmart by my landlady to do my monthly grocery shopping and on the third occasion I was able to take a bus down to the vape store one evening when the temperatures dropped to 80° but even then I had to take Lyft back so take that accomplishment for what it's worth and it's probably not worth much. 

I have been religiously taking my Breo inhaler for the last month and my lung doctor thinks that this will improve things. So far I have not noticed any difference, but the only way we'll find out if he's right is on October 5th when my next appointment with him is and he does a breathing test to see if there is any Improvement. I am very close to firing him and finding a new pulmonologist however, because especially of late he just seems rather dismissive about my physical abilities and my concerns such as having to rest twice during a two-block walk or walking just a few steps and being completely winded.  His reply is to everything is because you need to lose weight. The guy has got a one-track mind when it comes to these things. Yes I know I have weight to lose, but let me tell you something, when you stand up and take three steps and your heart rate jumps to 132 beats a minute something is not right, however I will give it until my next appointment with him on October 5th, we will see what the breathing test shows, and then I will make my decision from that point. October should be when the weather starts cooling down again, maybe even late September and hopefully I'll be able to get out and about again without nearly ending up in an ambulance in the process.

I think I'm going to have to save up the money for one of those scooters that you see people riding around on, the ones that Trooper finds some perverse pleasure in mocking people who use them in his Vlogs from time to time. I don't relish the thought of it, but if it will get me where I want to go and not have to struggle and stop every couple hundred feet to take a breather then it will be well worth it, but of course these things are in excess of $1,000 or $1,500 and I don't see me being able to get one anytime soon, but who knows, if that disability widowers benefit comes through in November that could get me on my way to getting one of them and if that does happen it's going to get me some freedom of movement again.

After 17 days without the Internet I got back online on Tuesday. Added some money to the small bankroll I had on there, decided to try a little challenge for myself and I will report what has been going on in the next entry. This year is far from over and there is still time to turn this baby around. Never count me out. That's all for now. Take care everyone and I'll see you at the tables.

Tuesday, July 18, 2017

The Poker Partnership Part ll

We got started on the second part of the poker partnership on ACR on Monday. Starting Monday with a balance of $258.35 and an average daily expenditure of roughly $25 a day for all intents and purposes with the amount being spent per day and the account balance available we had roughly 10 days of Poker life left. 

The first two days of being back on ACR were an experience of horrendous. In 24 tournaments played I finished in the money in only three of them and one of those was $0.33 in a freeroll. In the tournaments played over those first two days I suffered a minimum of 18 different bad beats, and lost every coin flip situation when my tournament life was on the line.  To say this was a day of slamming things would be an understatement, but fortunately  nothing important got broken.  

Cost:  $26.03
ITM:  2 for 12
Earnings:  ($22.39) 

Cost:  $27.15
ITM:  1 for 12
Earnings:  ($23.37) 

So being down $120 coming into ACR on this partnership and starting off another over ($45) in the hole was not exactly what one would call fun. If there was any positive to be taken from the first two days, and those positives were very few and far between, was that towards the end of Tuesday, although I wasn't cashing, I could see things starting to turn slightly in a positive sense and possibly those signs were that I was coming out of this little funky slump and Wednesday was definitely an improvement. I went 3 for 11 including a 6th place finish in the $400 guaranteed rebuy and a third-place finish in a $1 tournament.

Cost:  $24.95
ITM:  3 for 11
Earnings:  $16.74

Thursday was definitely the best day of the week going 3 for 10 with a 4th place finish in the $500 guaranteed and a 2nd place finish in the $2.20 PLO8 even though that PLO8 finish was only worth $18 it all helped towards a day of $47.96 worth of earnings. 
Friday had nothing worth getting excited about, just a couple of small cashes and a loss of a little over ($11) on the day. 

Cost:  $21.85
ITM:  3 for 10
Earnings:  $47.96

Cost:  $15.55
ITM:  2 for 9
Earnings:  ($11.42)

So the bad news was that I started out over ($45) in the hole, the good news was that I was able to battle back however not for any earnings for the week, but close enough to break even that I could deal with it. The account balance started the week at $258.35 and ended the week at $257.69. Not great, but a lot better than it could have been considering how the week started out.

ACR Week 1

Cash:          ($8.11)
SNGs:        ($3.45)
MTTs:        $7.52
Raleback:  $3.38
Total:  ($0.66)

WSOP: ($120)
ACR:     $17.69
Total:    ($102.31)

Monday, July 17, 2017

Comment Responses

Memphis MOJO said:

Dude, this health thing is scary -- sorry to hear about it.

"He has me on the inhaler Breo, but too often I forget to take it."

You are kidding right?

No, I'm not kidding. I've always all my life had difficulties remembering to take medication, however recently I have taken steps two eliminate this forgetfulness.

Tony Bigcharles said:

i didn't realize his health issues were this bad

Yes Tony, at times it can be. Some days are better than others and some days are worse than others, but hey I'm Invincible anyway so let life throw at me whatever it can.  I will fight it off and bounce back always. 

Ace said:

Flush, sorry to hear about the health issues and I hope you get well soon.

Thanks Ace. The intense heat really aggravates the conditions I do have, but the fact of the matter is I still am getting from point A to point B I'm just slower than everybody else. However as soon as the cooler weather arrives that should be a considerable Improvement for me. Also, I may have not been getting the full effects of the Breo inhaler which I will explain down below.

Zin said:

Hope your breathing gets better, do you have copd? You need to give up all forms of caffeine, not good for lungs. Best of luck going forward.

Yes, I do have COPD, chronic Bronchitis at the very least. I was not aware of the caffeine being an issue, but fortunately I am not a coffee or tea drinker and the only caffeine I use are caffeine pills when I have not gotten enough sleep the previous night. The grind must go on and so under those circumstances there is no real choice for me as far as I'm concerned when it comes to that form of caffeine. 

Alysia Chang said:

This sucks. Thank God for MIB being physically there in the house with you. You have a great friend!

Yeah my main bro Joe keeps me on my toes and if I get frustrated and don't feel like taking my medicine he will simply threaten to make me cease to exist so it's a pretty good system we have lol. It's absolutely great having my bestie as my roommate. Awesome just to be able to hang out on a daily basis, talk poker, talk sports, it's just totally cool having him here. 

Poker & Gambling 24/7 said:

This blog would get even better if you could add Tony Bigcharles as the Three's Company roommate

Sir, have you lost your ever-loving mind?? I swear I'm going to reserve a bed for you at the local mental institution lmao!!

Thomas OToole lll said:

That would be quite the grind house and be watched more than Bill Perkins "Stream Boat." I would love to be a fly on the wall to hear the strategy and conversations discussed. Just think of the donations people would make to hear the inside scoop.

Lmao!!  You Sir, can share a room at the mental institution with Mr Poker & Gambling lol!!

Now for the explanation about not getting the effects of the Breo I mentioned above. I spent the weekend over at my friend Michelle's house and we were hanging out watching TV, listening to music, and it was really relaxing and great to spend time with my friend and take a couple of days off from this 12 to 16-hour tournament grind I've been pulling. Many of you may or may not know that she is a medical professional. She saw with her own two eyes how bad off I was Saturday where I took five steps and my breathing was so labored it was scary even to her. As we discussed the situation at first she thought perhaps I was having a bad reaction to the Breo and even recommended that I might want to stop it and I said to her, "Well, that might be a good idea besides I can't stand the taste of that powdery stuff on my tongue anyway, it's gross." As soon as she heard this she looked at me and said, "Wait a minute if you are getting the powdery stuff from the Breo inhaler on your tongue that means it's not making it into your lungs or very very little is."  She came up with a method where instead of putting the Breo inhaler to my mouth and then inhaling it, to start inhaling then put the Breo unit to the mouth, the idea being  with inhaling first it is providing a better way or a stronger method of getting the medication directly into the lungs. I did this Sunday morning and the difference between Saturday and Sunday was absolutely miraculous like the difference between day and night. I was able to get up, move around, do things such as go to the kitchen and get something to eat and I was not having hardly any breathing difficulties at all so she may very well have been correct. Time will tell as to whether or not that is the solution or was the problem, but at least to start off with it appears it just may have been. I will naturally keep you updated.

Monday, July 10, 2017

Shut Inside For 3 Months

My latest appointment with the pulmonologist shows my breathing capacity is down to 62%. Coming home from said doctor's appointment I nearly collapsed. Going from one bus stop to another bus stop I had to stop 4 times in a third  of a mile and rest. The slightest bit of exertion, even simply walking is shooting my heart rate up to about 140 beats per minute, causing severe nausea which half the time results in vomiting right there where I stand, unable to even catch a breath in many cases, and combine all of this with the intense heat and it is a bad bad situation all around. 

My roommate and bestie Joe aka  ManInBlack was on the phone with me at the time and heard me throwing my guts up, he was ready to call an ambulance right there on the spot, but I convinced him that I was okay. At that moment in time I probably wasn't but I knew that if I continue to stay seated on the curbing that I was on I would be alright. I was able to make it home, but it took an Uber to do it because quite frankly I don't think I would have made the final two block walk from the final bus stop to the house.  

It's obvious to me after the latest incident that I need to stay inside the house for the next 3 months with the single exception of my food shopping trip that I do on the 3rd of each month and with that I take Lyft and other than that I'm not budging unless I'm going for a swim in the pool we have in the backyard until the weather cools down and it will also give us time to employ an idea my pulmonologist has. He has me on the inhaler Breo, but too often I forget to take it. He told me make sure I take it everyday religiously for the next 3 months and then on my next appointment, which is October 5th, he will do the breathing test again to see if the breathing capacity has improved. I have cancelled or am going to cancel all doctor's appointments between now and October. I just can't deal with this intense heat because of my physical ailments. I do much much better in the cooler weather and this is just something I need to do.

Its not exactly fun having to do this for there will be no going out and having fun but after what happened the other day with the heart rate feeling like it was going to pound out of my chest, the exertion vomiting, the breathing that was practically non-existent I have got to wait until the weather cools off and three months of this Breo to find out what hopefully positive result it may produce. I was feeling pretty down after that doctor's visit and actually seriously contemplated stepping in front of the bus as it came down the road ending things right then and there  instead of letting it be drawn out. I mean with my breathing capacity seemingly declining steadily, what's the point of dragging it out, you can't live if you can't breathe. However, my doctor seems to think that this Breo will do a lot so we'll just have to see how it goes so for right now I won't be ending anything at this time at least.
The one positive aspect about all of this is the grind will go on and will not be interrupted unless I simply just want to take a full day and sleep my day away and that may happen from time to time considering the hours that I put in at this it truly does get exhausting and after awhile and my body shuts down and puts me to sleep for 14 or 16 hours and basically says I will have the last word on this.

Now let's talk about the poker. This little poker partnership that I have going with "Daniel" started out on a very very sour note. He sent the money via PayPal on Sunday and with $160 in bonus money available on WSOP we both agreed that trying to clear some of it was in our best interest. I agreed to this, but I should probably have my head examined because of it. I reminded him of my struggles in cash games and also in SNGs which he already knew about from reading my blog, but he felt it was worth taking the risk and quite frankly at the time I did too. I ended up trying both cash games and $5 nine player turbo SNGs separately. It turned out pretty ugly to the tune of $46 in losses in the SNGs and another $21 and losses in cash games so $67 down to clear a single $10 bonus. Also an 0 for 8 run in the $3 deepstack rebuys we needed to immediately reassess the situation and discussing it we came up with an alternative Plan B.

$120 down and $240 remaining we decided that the best way to proceed would be to transfer this money to ACR and grind the tournaments there because it's pretty obvious to both of us that with all tournaments being eliminated at WSOP except for rebuys and higher higher-priced re-entries a much larger bankroll is needed to be able to play a WSOP. I put it in withdraw for PayPal and set up a swap with a friend of mine that has done these ACR swaps with me previously and would do so again as soon as the money arrived. Well WSOP claims that the withdrawal was done at 12:15 a.m. on the 5th and quite frankly that is bullshit because I know for a fact I did it before midnight but because they claimed it was 12:15 a.m. on the 5th and they force you to wait 3 business days for PayPal withdrawal which is also bullshit considering the fact that they can do a casino withdraw in 12 hours it is not necessary to make a player wait 3 business days for a PayPal transaction, but because they falsely claimed it was done at 12:15 a.m. that means the money will not be hitting PayPal until Monday or Tuesday.  So nothing to do but wait.  

0700am:  $2.10 NLH Rebuy $400 Gtd 

0900am:  $4.20 PLO8 Rebuy $200 Gtd 

1115am:  $3.30 NLH $200 Gtd 

1215pm:  $2.20 PLO8 

0425pm:  $3.30 NLH $150 Gtd 

0445pm:  $1.10 PLO 6-Max  $100 Gtd 

0530pm:  $1.10 NLH $50 Gtd

0545pm:  $2.20 NLH KO 

0645pm:  $3.30 NLH $500 Gtd 

0720pm:  $1.05 PLO8 Rebuy 

0745pm:  $1.10 NLH KO 

Acct Bal:  $240
Tour / Day:  11
Cost / Day:  $24.95
ABI:  $2.27
ABIs Avail:  105

Once I get this balance back up above $360 then the following tournaments can be added.

1245pm:  $4.40 NLH 6-Max $200 Gtd
0900am:  $3.30 NLH  $1000 Gtd 

0345pm:  $5.50 NLH  $500 Gtd 

0800pm:  $5.50 NLH  $500 Gtd 

Also other various $5.50 tournaments offered on special days during the week. 

Under no circumstances will there be any 5-hour late registration tournaments played and any and all three hour late registration tournaments played will have 15 minute blind levels minimum.

So  in the meantime while waiting for the money to show up Daniel decides to send me $30 just to give me something to do while we wait. The idea was for me to play some of the small buyins while we're waiting. If I didn't make any profit from the $30 during the few days we had to wait just send back whatever I had left over and if I did make a profit then send him the $30 back and then we'll use any earnings towards the current arrangement that we're in. I thought this was an awesome idea because it would give me something to do and maybe we could pop up the $240 balance that we had. It didn't go great but it didn't go horrendous either. On Sunday after only playing a couple of tournaments and I was tired as hell that afternoon, I was able to send him the $30 back and we had $18 in earnings over and above that. Not great, but not ugly either.

So we start today with the account balance at $258 from a $360 start. As of this posting WSOP still has not sent the money to PayPal, but according to somebody in chat from WSOP it is due to arrive today so I can at least start off the day with the $18 available. That's going to wrap this up for now. A bad start but the start really doesn't matter as long as the finish ends up positive and that's what I'm shooting for right now so until next time take, care everyone, and I'll see you at the tables.

Saturday, July 1, 2017

Half Year Review

A few comment responses to start things off.

Pokerdogg said:

FD says "I can be out drawn but I cannot be outplayed."

Do you really believe this? I guess this explains why you don't spend time studying and work on your game, you are already the best.

This attitude, IMHO, is not the recipe for success. Even Phil Helmuth, one of the very few successful tournament pro who may say stuff like this in public, I bet he still work on his game and will tell you a different story in private. 

GL as always

It is not often that I do not agree with something that you have commented on but in this particular case Mr. Dogg I disagree with you quite vehemently.  In answer to your question you're damn right I believe that. The fact of the matter is if I don't believe that, if I don't believe that I am the best player in any and all situations that I am in, then I don't belong at those tables. If I walk into the Golden Nugget to play a $70 tournament and I do not have the confidence and attitude that I am the best player in that tournament then I might as well get back on the bus and go home because I do not belong there. The same same goes for online. If I don't go in with the confidence knowing they can't outplay me they can only outdraw me then I never should have entered that tournament in the first place and I might as well shut the laptop off and watch Mash reruns on cable TV because I certainly don't belong in that tournament.

You also assume a lot when you say I am not spending time studying and working on my game. Quite frankly you don't know what I'm doing in regards to this unless you were sitting right here next to me. I am constantly watching videos, checking out forums, trying to find any insight I possibly can. My latest form of study is watching/listening to Daniel Negreanu's Vlog as he has many many many tips for players, goes over hand histories in various forms of Poker and I think it is a valuable valuable tool.

Toodope4u said

So 10nl showed no results at all? I lost chunks on plo bad to play in a budget but 10nl should have resulted in a ltitle gains no?

No I did not. I ended up playing 4 hours and lost like $2.74. I was actually amazed I played as long as I did for as you know I find cash games to be completely boring. Many times rather than play a no limit cash game I'd rather watch paint dry and in this particular case after 4 hours I was sitting at the laptop staring at the screen making my moves like a robotic zombie because there was nothing there to hold my interest. Blinds that don't change, situations that remain constant it almost put me to sleep on more than one occasion.

J Dubs said:

I only know your blog through TBC but lm impressed you can grind such low stakes. If you show some results I'd be willing to stake $100 to play in a few $20 or up tournaments for an agreed upon split. Good luck

Well thank you very much I appreciate the thought of that. Over the last two years on WSOP as far as $20 tournaments go my performance is as follows albeit somewhat limited. Even though the rebuys are $10 they are a total cost of $20 since I always do the immediate rebuy and the $10 KO is also a $20 buy-in total.

$10 NLH KO
6 for 21 / $173.82

$20 NLH Freezeout
8 for 53 / $170.89

$10 NLH Rebuy $1K Gtd
2 for 7 / $171.31

$10 NLH Rebuy $2K Gtd
3 for 18 / ($112.91)

$10 NLH Rebuy $1250 Gtd
4 for 21 / ($13.20)

Obviously I believe that my sample size is far too few for anybody to be willing to stake me to $20 tournaments per se, but as the bankroll grows I will be able to play more and more of these and hopefully be able to improve on the ones that I'm showing losses on and continue making the earnings in the ones that I am showing earnings on.

So on to the half-year review.

February 27th 2017
Bankroll:  $830.68

That was a very pretty sight to see back at the end of February, so where did I go wrong that I am at this very moment in time temporarily busto until Monday. Well first and foremost I can tell you that I was playing $20 tournaments more often than I should have and I was not even adhering to my own personal bankroll rules in playing these. That is one thing that will change in the second half of 2017.

Another issue was too many sporadic shots at live tournaments. Also shots at live tournaments that did not have the structure best suited to me.  Taking sporadic shots at live tournaments is not the way to go. Poker is always about the long-term and even though I can't realistically do a long-term shot live because it just would take too much money and I need a rush of tournaments to build a live bankroll, at the same time I need to give myself a certain number to be played and not in a sporadic sense.  A prime example is for the second half of 2017 and beyond I will not take $45 and end up at Sam's Town in a structure that is not tuned to my game or even take $70 and play a single tournament at the Golden Nugget and instead will wait until I actually have enough money where I can play 10 live tournaments.  They will be at the Golden Nugget where it has the best structure for a $70 tournament in this town. A run of 10 of them may not be very many, but at least it would give me an opportunity to work in a couple of deep runs in there potentially worth hundreds and hundreds of dollars giving me at the very least 10 more shots or maybe even more of those live tournaments to add on to however many buy-ins I might have left out of that initial 10. I think you get the idea. I can't rush it I just have to let it happen naturally and I think I was rushing things in the first half of the year.

There is no doubt that the period of depression that I went through equated to a lot of poor decisions and unwarranted thought processes. Me having suspicions about WSOP is a prime example. I think about that now and the more I think about it the more silly I feel even in my last entry I said I was still a little bit uneasy about going back to WSOP the more and more I think about it the more and more I realize that's a foolish statement. Going over to ACR in that state of depression and playing tournaments that have three and five hour late registrations was asinine. What the hell was I thinking. All three of these things contributed to a steady decline not to mention the post that I did at the end of March which said that I needed to try cash games one more time. During the course of the year I was also playing heads-up SNGs as high as $25,  it did not go well. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results. Enough said.

So realizing errors made, decisions that shouldn't have been made, the real question is how will I rectify that going forward. Well first and foremost I believe that it would be prudent to make sure that I have the standard 100 buyins for the lowest cost tournament I'm playing which in this case will be the $3 tebuys which cost $6 total which means I need at $600 to have 100 buyins for those before I can even consider playing any $20 tournaments.  Taking sporadic single shots at $20 tournaments online is no better then taking sporadic shots at single Golden Nugget tournaments. You need to give yourself at least a few to play to give yourself a chance to get some deep runs and I think 20 is a nice round number for online. So 20 shots at $20 tournaments would cost $400, not forgetting that I want to have $600 so I have 100 buy-ins of the $3 Deepstack Rebuys in addition to that $400 therefore $20 tournaments cannot be played until I have $1,000 available and then I can make a 20 tournament run at them. Now that may be a little different since I will be in a partnership with "Daniel" for the upcoming month of July and if he really felt that it might be positive EV for us to take a shot in a $20 deepstack okay then I would because it's not just me making these decisions for July, but when I am playing everything on my own dime once again, these rules will be followed religiously.

Now for the part of the entry I have been sincerely dteading. What does that make my goal amount going forward??  Ughhh I don't even want to have to answer this. One thing I noticed was initially back in January my goal was set at $5,000. That was kind of sort of particularly ridiculous. I then reduced it in February down to $4,000 and came to the conclusion that that too was ridiculous period in March I had brought it down to $2,000 and that's where it should have stayed but let's face it March and April we're not exactly stellar months in my personal life not to mention psychological well-being, but that's where it should have stayed, but then I ended up lowering it and lowering it and lowering it and then taking shots at a live tournament here and there because $2,000 seemed like it was so far away, but in the end that's what it needs to be, the most reasonable amount when absolutely everything is taken into consideration, but it feels like it's a million miles away and that's why I keep changing and adjusting it, but nonetheless when it comes right down to it my goal has to be $2,000. That will allow me to keep $1,000 online in case my run of 10 live is unsuccessful. It would allow me to return to online and still have a 20 tournament run of $20 tournaments along with the $3 deepstack rebuys and it will give me $1,000 for that run of 10 tournaments at the Golden Nugget.  That will cost $700 and the other $300 will be used for traveling and food expenses and perhaps a limit cash game in between tournaments here and there. There is no doubt it has to be this way and considering I am going to be starting on Monday in a partnership which means any earnings for the month of July I only get half of them it's going to make this $2,000 figure seem like it's billions of miles away, I mean we're talking light-years here, but realizing from the errors of the first half of this year, I don't have any choice.  I don't have to like it, but I don't have any choice in jt. Look where rushing things got me......... nowhere fast.

That's a wrap. Provided no last minute snafus occur "Daniel" is supposed to be sending $180 via PayPal on Monday and then I will deposit the whole $360 onto WSOP the same day. It's a 60 buyin start for the $3 Deepstack Rebuys and I can't wait to get back to work. This not playing poker except for freeeolls is pure hell on earth. So until next time take care everyone and I'll see you at the tables.

Bankroll:  $180
Goal $2000
Progress:  9%

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Temporarily Busto

Yeah, you read that title right, I'm temporarily busted. I won't go into details, but I did something very foolish in an attempt to build up my account balance in a quick way and it didn't work. Suffice it to say it involved $10 SNGs and PLO8 cash games. Yes,  I know, how many times have I said I am a tournament player nothing else. I'm not an SNG player, I'm not a cash game player, I am a tournament player, and what do I do, I go and blow the last hundred bucks on things that is not in my wheelhouse.  All is not lost however, as I am about to have an influx of cash. 

A few days back somebody got in touch with me who reads and is a fan of my blog and obviously like yourselves they have read of my continuing financial struggles not only in poker, but in regular life. As all of you know I do not try to hide these facts from my readers, and anyway they made me a couple of offers. First gather up as much money as I possibly could in the upcoming month of July and they would match I sending it to me via PayPal and which I can then do a deposit onto WSOP with it, and for the month of July we would be partners in the tournaments played and when July was over I would simply send their portion to them via PayPal and then we could reevaluate whether or not I wanted to go back on my own in August or we wanted to continue this on for another month.

I was a bit unsure because if this did not work  technically speaking in two weeks I could be completely out of money again, but then they told me If it this did not prove successful they will still lend me the initial $150 so at the very least I can return to ACR if absolutely necessary. This person asked me to under no circumstances reveal their identity and I can easily understand that, so for purposes of this blog and referring to this individual I am going to refer to him as Daniel, after one of my all-time favorite professional poker players, Daniel Negreanu and no, the person that made me the offer is not Daniel Negreanu lol.  

I have switched around things, robbed Peter to pay Paul, put off of thing or two to the following month and I can come up with $150 minimum and possibly as much as $180 out of my upcoming check and with "Daniel" matching that it would be a $300 to $360 start for the $3 deepstack rebuys. Those are the only ones that will be played at first, four of them a day, and if there are earnings then there will be $10 rebuys and $20 tournaments played. 

Now for some personal updates. The blood work came back and it turns out that I am pre-diabetic and possibly full-blown diabetic and with a high cholesterol level. My doctor who I have referred to in the past and not so affectionately as a Crotchety Old Goat, to say the least, is being a pain in the ass about this. He tells me he wants to order a glucose tolerance test a test that would take 4 hours. I told him that I was not really enthused about this possibility and he says to me "Well you want to know don't you?" and I turned to him and said, "No, I want to stay in blissful ignorance." Well, I guess it fell on deaf ears because he ordered the test anyway. Oh joy. Starve myself for 8 hours before the test and another for during the test this is going to be fun. Not to mention with my upcoming shopping trip he basically wants me eating things you would find in the bottom of a rabbit cage. This is not going to be easy. My dietary choices generally speaking is anything that you can cook in the microwave and sandwiches lots of sandwiches and lots and lots of eggs. Egg salad, scrambled eggs and toast, that sort of thing. The month of June alone I had 53 eggs, but he wants me on no more than three or four a week. No sense even buying eggs on my upcoming shopping trip. I am going to be buying salads, tuna fish, and pasta and in hope that not only will it bring down the blood sugars but the cholesterol level as well God help me.

On a good note one of my besties ManInBlack is going to be a new roommate of mine. His roommates are moving out of state and since we had a room available here he decided to take advantage of it. It's going to be great having my best friend here to hang out and talk poker with. I am really looking forward to having him here.

Well, that's going to wrap this one up. Back on WSOP in back in the $3 deep stack rebuys which all I can say have been my bread-and-butter for two years. Part of me still has certain concerns about the site in general, but I am the first to admit that those thoughts could have been brought about just because I was running bad. It would not be the first time, but all I can do is play my heart out and Hope that I can run to expectation. One thing as a fact whether or not certain readers like me saying it or not. I can be out drawn but I cannot be outplayed. The only reason I will get knocked out of tournaments 95% of the time is because of a bad beat a cooler or an extended period of card deadness because I do not get knocked out of tournaments through recklessness and that my friends is a fact. Until next time and we meet again, take care everyone, and I'll see you at the tables.

Bankroll:  $150 minimum in 4 days
Goal:  $1000
Progress:  15%

Sunday, June 25, 2017

A Couple Quick Comment Responses

Pokerdogg said:

I have asked this question before and I don't think you ever answered it. Why are your volume so low? Using your 45% ROI, and let's say 18 full days equivalent and $25 total profit, that is $3.09 per day of average buy in. Why are you averaging 3 tournaments a day? This makes no sense, unless the ACR site is dead and run only 4 or 5 of these a day. Volume is your friend in online poker.

Sorry there Mr Dogg I thought I had answered this. On ACR the available $1.10 tournaments are as follows. That is to say the available ones that I would play because I'm not waking my ass up at 6:30 in the morning for a 7 a.m. tournament and I'm not staying up around the clock.

4:45 p.m. PLO 6 Max $100 Gtd
5:30 p.m. $1.10 NLH $50 Gtd
7:20 p.m. $0.55 PLO8 Rebuy
7:45 p.m. $1.10 6 Max KO

Memphis MOJO said:

Why not give SNGs another try. The are grind, but pretty much a sure thing for someone like you.

I did for 2 days. If I had to do this for one more hour I was going to smash my skull through the nearest wall. I hated it!!

Something had to be done and I came up with a decision that threw bankroll management out the window and gave me four days of Poker life left. That post will be coming relatively shortly.

Thursday, June 22, 2017

Rock And A Hard Place

I feel like I'm caught between a rock and a hard place also known as the old catch-22 and no matter how you look at it, what it boils down to is that without an influx of serious cash to add to my bankroll I'm not going to get anywhere fast. 21 days of June complete, 16 of those days full poker days, total earnings and this is including a couple of dollars in rakeback which granted ain't much, but total earnings of $25.  something has got to give. I've got to figure out a way to increase earnings to get me into actual tournaments that are going to actually produce some real money. Playing in tournaments that are paying at least or close to $100 up top if not more comma but at the same time not having to face fields that contain hundreds of individuals, the bottom line is I need to be playing in tournaments that are $5.50 and up.

However, there is the ever so slight problem of available funds. Sure, I could take my $125 and say let's shoot the moon and start playing those $5.50 tournaments. Then again I can play Russian roulette with six bullets in the revolver and neither one of those ideas is really a prosperous one. I could continue to play these micro tournaments until the disability widowers benefit kicks in hopefully in November, and on the other hand I could tie a rope around my throat and choke myself until I pass out, but neither one of these options is particularly appealing. 

What is it that I can do that could generate earnings that could be utilized towards some buyins at the $5.50 tournaments and even higher. I could try no limit cash games again only this time only play a single table of them, but then again I could also paint a wall and watch the paint dry because the two activities have approximately the same level of excitement for me personally. Yeah let's scratch that thought right there.  I must admit that if I did add cash games then it would increase the rakeback I'm getting. I mean hell if I could work that sucker up to a couple of bucks a day it would be more than what I'm making at the tables right now.  ACR does have a limited amount of limit games which I do enjoy much more so than No Limit, but the only thing that seems to go and be played on a steady basis is $0.04/$0.08 and $0.40/ $0.80 Stud Hi-Lo. Obviously with $125 I should not be playing the latter and I can't imagine that the former providing that much earnings potential. Not to mention Stud in general could possibly make me want to smash my skull into a brick wall. If you think that bad beats happen in Holden try playing Stud sometime. Believe me you ain't seen nothing yet. However it would generate a certain amount of rake and thus generate a certain amount of rakeback since I get and am on 27% rakeback on ACR, and  assumedly generate a certain amount of earnings. This is a possibility and let's put this on the back burner for a few moments.

The only thing that is left is SNGs. There's only one little problem with SNGs, I don't do well. The last time I tried this little endeavor for NLH SNGs I played in like 36 of the damn things and came out stone-cold even. Yeah that's two days of my life I'll never get back. Maybe I didn't play enough of them, maybe I was just in a cold run, then again maybe for me breaking even is a heater for all I know.  It is giving me something to think about. The lowest SNG on ACR is $1.65 and if I could by some miracle play 20 a day and get and maintain a 10% ROI in them that would be an average earnings of $3.30 a day. Work my way up to the $3.30 SNGs  now we're looking at $6.60 a day plus whatever money I could make playing the stud Hi-Lo game plus the right back I could actually make enough to play a couple of the $5.50 tournaments each day and a deep run or two in these and all of a sudden I'm looking at a bankroll that has hundreds of dollars in it, not treading water trying to keep it above the $100 mark.

I'm sure I don't need to remind anybody because my readership has memories that don't quit, but this is the exact thing that I have been trying to avoid. I mean I've had these thoughts going through my head recently and I have been saying no I'm not going to do it this time, I'm going to stick with my micro tournaments, but after 21 days, 16 of those full poker days and only making $25, I feel that my continuing to say no I don't want to do this is just being stubborn on my part. It's another case of being caught in a catch-22 because half my readership is going to be happy that I am trying something to increase the earnings and the other half is going to put me down for changing up my plan again. No matter what I'm caught between a rock and a hard place.

But no matter what anybody may say, pro and con  I don't see any other choice. I mean I have an ITM percentage of roughly 33%, have made 12 final tables and I'm still only earning $25 total. Something has got to give. I think I'm going to try this on a temporary basis and see what happens. If it proves profitable continue with it, if it doesn't prove profitable go back to my micro tourneys I mean at least I am earning something, but at the same time I'm going to have to give myself some sort of numerical testing timeframe. Let's say a 1 week test, that should give me enough time to play at least 100 NLH SNGs and see what the results look like. At the same time play the the micro Stud Hi-Lo and see how much I can make from that. A one-week test and see if I actually have a bankroll left at the end of that time. See how I look after the first 100 or so SNGs and then decide how to proceed from there.

Tomorrow is Thursday and Friday I have a doctors appointment at 9:45 a.m. so it should not interfere too much in the grind. However, I feel I've got a battle coming up with this new doctor on Friday as I saw what my test results were from the blood work online. Thanks to my friend Michelle as she instructed me how to obtain this information and it looks like I am a pre-diabetic which means my sugar is high but not high enough to have type 2 diabetes, and it looks like I am also borderline on having high cholesterol and I am sure that me and my new doctor, whom I affectionately already refer to as that Crotchety Old Goat, is going to have to something to say about this. I get the feeling that when I do my monthly shopping trip on the 3rd of the upcoming month he is going to want me to be eating things that you would find in a rabbit cage.

That's going to wrap this entry up and the next entry will be one week from today. Next Wednesday night I will write an entry telling you how things went. If I feel up to it I might even do a midweek entry just to keep you up-to-date on how things are going. Right now they are going very slowly and I just hope that I don't take a really bad hit in doing this. I hope it's not a case where I should just be satisfied with the small amount I'm making because it's better than losing, but we will see what there is to see. No matter what I think I need to put a solid effort into this and see what happens with the first 100 played. Until next time take care everyone and I'll see you at the tables.

Bankroll:  $125
Goal:  $1000
Progress:  12.5%

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

Friend Or Foe I Really Don't Know

Apparently Caleb decided that he had a few things he wanted to say to me so much so that he decided he wanted to submit it twice, but I figured just posting it once would be sufficient, but nevertheless I guess I should respond. I'll take each point and try to remember not to tell him to take a flying leap in the process. Caleb's opinions will be in bold print.

Caleb said:

Tournaments have a shit ton more variance than cash games do. A great tournament player can have a losing *year* playing a full schedule, while it would be extremely unlikely that a great player will have a losing year playing cash games.

That is your opinion and perhaps that is your experience. My experience however is completely opposite. I could post a list of screenshots, I could tell you about the times and multiple times where I have flopped a set and lost eight out of 10 times with it, I could tell you all sorts of stories but it would be meaningless because you've already got your mind made up so nothing that I say will make any difference, but the fact of the matter is with me tournaments are the steady money. Don't get me wrong I have my downswings like everybody, but overall they have a much more steady increase on the graph.

You seem to think that the only reason for your losing in cash is because of variance. Not only is this incorrect, it is also a fairly lazy attitude to have. You likely have leaks, and may even be -EV in these cash games, so to simply handwave away your results as mere variance is going to cost you money in the long run if you don't start working to improve your game.

You Sir know nothing of my game, but I have had an eyewitness account of what has happened to me in cash games, I have had an eyewitness account of the hideous beats that I have taken for stack after stack after stack after stack, but immediately you assume there's something wrong with my game and furthermore when it comes to poker I put in a lot of hours scratching and clawing for a dollar or 2 so you may call me many things, but lazy is not one of them!!

I also detect a bit of a false confidence that borders on arrogance. When you claim that "I will never be outplayed," you are not being confident, you are being naive.

That's right and I'll say it again I will not be outplayed I will only be outdrawn. That is a fact and it is not arrogant it is confidence because if I don't have that thought process in my mind when I'm walking into a live tournament I might as well turn around and walk right out again and the same thing goes for online, I better have that confidence in me or I better not play that day.

This somewhat reminds me of Mike Matusow from several years ago when he made similar proclamations. Well, the game passed him by and it wasn't until recently that he started to work on his game that he started to have success again.

Oh joy you're now comparing me to an ex-con druggie. Thanks for the great compliment and take a long walk off a short pier while you're at it.

I hope you don't take this the wrong way as, I, and I'm sure everyone who comments here on your blog are sincerely rooting for you to succeed. I just wanted to stress how imperative it is to continue to work and improve your game.

Well geeze just why in the world would I ever take something like this wrong. Let me see you have called me lazy, arrogant naive, compared me to an ex-con druggie, and you have no idea of the actual details of the losses, the wins, or anything else for that matter, but goodness gracious how could anyone ever take something like that wrong.  When I first read this I just chalked this up to another hateful troll because Lord knows I've got a slew of them out there, but in your last paragraph you actually have the statement that you are rooting for me and if you are that's very appreciated it really is, but unless you have been beside me this entire time and seeing what I have experienced then as far as I'm concerned you can take your assumptions and shove them in a variety of internal places.  You assume a lot and you know what they say about people who assume.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

Slow Progress And A Major Opportunity

The progress is going slow, but it is going in a positive direction for the month of June. Entering today's action earnings were $31.70 over the first 14 days however this was not 14 full days of play. A full day  typically for me is 8 to 10 tournaments on average per day, sometimes a little more if I hop into a private tournament or two whether that be a pay tournament or freeroll. I only played a full day 9 of those days. On the 1st, 7th, 9th, and 14th I only played in 5, 1, 1, and 3 tournaments respectively, and on the 4th I took the day off completely. So those for partial days would act up add up to a full day so in the first 14 days we can say I played 10 full days of tournaments. The results we're $31.30 in total earnings after the first 14 days and 10 full days of Poker which comes out to $3.13 per day. The reason I point this out specifically is because of the point I want to address. 

"Personally, winning $22 in 9 days is entirely to much effort for me FD puts in full days of grinding so far for the month with a profit of $22 (less than 2.50/day.)."

The above was a portion of a comment that was left on the post I did two entries back. And I focus on this because I know for a fact this is the attitude of many of my readers and it's really an attitude I just don't understand. Being a tournament player is so different from being a cash player in the fact that when we hit we hit for a amounts that increase whatever we're making per day by a factor of four or five in one fell swoop. Take last night as an example yes I was only making about $2.50 per day, but I finished 15th out of 235 players in a $3.30 NLH $500 Gtd tournament. If I had won that tournament it would have paid $136 up top so all of the sudden with a single win I'm now making 4 times more per day than what I started the day at. This gives the opportunity to play tournaments that cost more and winnings and the higher price tournament increase that amount per day maybe six seven or eight times of what it was. So I can go from making $2.50 a day to $10 a day to $40 a day to $100 a day and more.  It's a progression, but in order to take advantage of this progression you do have to be very patient about it knowing your times are going to come. 

At the end of play yesterday total earnings were  $31.30 so that's an average of $3.13 per day since I have calculated 10 full days where I played. Today was a decent day going 346 with two final tables .  Only made about 14 bucks but that's okay  these are micro tourneys  and when they pay 18% of the field  only the top three again in anything  relative.  However, during this time I have gone 28 for 78 in the regular tournaments with 10 final tables, but no wins yet. It is an ITM percentage of 36% and an ROI of 45%. Total earnings are now $46.74 over 11 full days of tournament play. That puts it at $4.25 per day. As you can see it is increasing, slow but sure, but it is increasing.  All in all I'm very satisfied with the results thus far for June. 

Another point I wanted to hit on is why some readers notice that I will change my approach from time to time is because of the slow progress that tournaments can produce. I have to admit during the month of June it has happened again. All of a sudden my mind started going through what can be done to increase the pace.  Cash games and SNGs came to my thoughts and each one of these is not my strong point yet a very large part of me was thinking "what happens if we give it one more try" "maybe this time it will be different" "maybe employing these along with the tournaments could increase this pace". These thoughts entered my mind just as they had so many times before. The only difference is this time I'm not going to fall victim to these thoughts. That has been the problem in the past I'll start adding cash games or think I should switch over to them for a couple of weeks and I will get hammered at it because of the increased variance and cash games vs tournaments. Or I'll add SNGs as I have done previously only to play 36 of them and come out absolutely dead even. What's the point. I know what kind of a player I am I know what I'm best at so no matter what the circumstances are, no matter how slow the earnings seem to be increasing comma I need to stay the course and at least on this particular occasion I am proud to say I am doing just that.  I did not fall prey to these thoughts racing through my mind. We take our victories any way we can get them no matter how small they may be.

Now for the major opportunity that has been presented to me and actually this is the second time it's been presented to me in as many weeks. Somebody that I have known through blogging for a few years now I finally had the opportunity to meet in person when he got in touch with me and asked me if I would be interested in being staked to a tournament in the Grand Poker Series at the Golden Nugget. Standard staking agreement meaning I have no financial liability should I lose and he was willing to split any earnings 50/50. His name is Rhett, that's his real name as he told me there was no need for an alias and two Sundays ago we met for the first time at the Golden Nugget. He immediately struck me as a very decent likeable fellow and I thoroughly enjoy the conversations that we had the opportunity to engage in. We each registered for the tournament and tried to do what we could do.

On level 2 I was able to double my starting stack of 15K to just over 30k when with one limper and blinds of 50-100 I raised to 500 and two players to my left 3bet me to 1500. I could have called here and trapped him on the flop, but that does not come without certain risks, or I could have 4bet a moderate amount, but something told me that he would call a shove. I shoved he thought about it for about maybe 10 seconds and called with AKo. A queen High flop and nothing more on the turn and river put me at over 30k.

Levels 5 through 8 was like walking through a dead zone. During the course of those two hours I only received 4 playable hands and that was it. Although the blinds and antes weren't extraordinarily large they still cost my stack a good portion.  During a couple of the breaks the one and only Tony Bigcharles joined Rhett and I outside of the Grand Room where we chatted just a little bit as Tony was in the Omaha8/Stud8 tournament I believe it was. Like most in the poker community Rhett knew of Tony through blogging. Talking with Tony is an interesting experience as anyone that has done so will know. When Tony gets on a subject he has a lot to say and sometimes I swear he doesn't take a breath in and only exhales lol. 

Levels 9 and 10 I picked up some pots, but they were only small and finally by the time I got to level 13, I was just dwindling and dwindling when I finally shoved with a one gap suited connector with about 6 big blinds left. The small blind called with 2 overcards which considering what I had wasn't difficult to have and if that was the end of the story I would have been very happy with this as although I was a 3-2 to underdog, at that point in the tournament I was willing to take those odds, but unfortunately I also ran into the big blind who woke up with AA.  There was actually an eight on the flop and I had life, but the river paired the queen that was also flopped not hitting any players and giving the AA hand top two pair and the pot and I was out.

I felt bad that I wasn't able to make money for us, but Rhett seemed satisfied with my performance and asked me right then and there if I would be interested in doing another stake in a couple of weeks. Obviously I'm not going to say no to this generous offer and that time has come and tomorrow Friday June 16th, 2017 I will be playing in event 27 of the Grand Poker Series at the Golden Nugget. The same tournament as last time. A $150 buy-in with a 15K starting stack and 30-minute levels and a delicious-looking structure. Obviously no one can know what's going to happen, but like last time I will play my heart out and do my absolute best although while texting I told Rhett that since he was the one that was doing all of the risk monetarily that if I do end up cashing this time I did not want it to be a 50/50 split that he definitely deserved at the bare minimum at least 60% of the take if there is any take to take home that is.

That's going to wrap this entry up.  it's now 10:36 p.m. and I want to be heading to sleep by midnight so that I get at least a solid seven or eight hours shut-eye and be primed and ready for tomorrow. I will be doing updates after each level on Twitter. My Twitter handle is @flushhdraw for anybody that's interested. So that's going to do it for now.  Current bankroll is $146.74, but who knows, after tomorrow it could be significantly more.  Maybe not but to get rid of me it will either take a bad beat, a cooler like running Kings into Aces or an extra long period of card deadness. I can be out drawn, but I will never be out played. Take care everyone and I'll see you at the tables.

Bankroll:  $146.74
Goal:  $800
Progress:  18%

Sunday, June 11, 2017

Comment Responses

Ace said in part:

Have you thought about doing one of the monthly poker room promotions around town? I think Treasure Island has a weekly promo

And Thomas Toole lll added in part:

I have suggested this in the past as well. 

I admire FD love for poker and grinding it out. Personally, winning $22 in 9 days is entirely to much effort for me FD puts in full days of grinding so far for the month with a profit of $22 (less than 2.50/day.). 

I would much rather see him save the $8 daily buy ins and play a cash game for 2 short buying or tourney when the funds are available to play 2-3 live tournies in a day. Micro stakes tournies & cash are no means to an end goal. 

Maybe he could get a stake for the cash games at TI. Buy in for the minimum and any losses of the stake comes out of the $600 rakeback. This is something I would support and consider helping to fund.

Guys here's the problem. I hate No Limit cash games. I hate saying the phrase No Limit cash games. I have played them live I have played them online and each one has all the excitement of watching newly applied paint on a wall dry. Anyone and I mean anyone who went into something like that whether on their own dime or a stake that hates every second of being at that table is not going to play there optimum. They will not be playing there A game every step of the way and there is no way in the world I would risk somebody else's hard-earned cash and their trust in me when I know damn well it is very very very likely, that I would make mistakes or play hands that I shouldn't just because of my mindset and boredom of being in that game. Ig somebody wanted to do a stake based on me playing $3/$6 ot $4/$8 limit Hold'em hell yeah bring it on. Or if they wanted to offer me a stake on a certain number of live tournaments played I would jump at that opportunity, but accepting a stake with the intention of playing no-limit cash games, knowing that I would not have the proper mindset going in isn't something I would ever do.

Tony Bigcharles said:

I'd be more inclined to wonder what u were doing in the sportsbook

And Pokerdogg added:

It is a valid question regardless of who asked it.

Well not that I think this even deserves an explanation, but ACR has its own Sportsbook and you can bet as little as a dollar. So I take a dollar each day and I put it on a 4 or a 5 team parlay for the baseball games and you know maybe I win $10, maybe I win $12 maybe I win $7 depending on how many teams I played. Overall on the year even with the dollar parlay that I lost today I am ahead $18.79 at the Sportsbook. It's not like I'm losing nor am I risking very much and I never risk more than a dollar and every so often $2 in a single day, but the fact that I show an overall profit must mean it's not the worst idea in the world.

Friday, June 9, 2017

My ACR Results Review And The Start Of June

This is a pretty long entry so you have been forewarned.  

Taking a chance, considering I have certain concerns about WSOP, I nonetheless decided to make a return to that site, but this lasted only a single day because the very following day in their Infinite wisdom or lack thereof, they decided they did not want to cater to the small bankrolled players apparently and took away all $1 and $2 regular tournaments.  The only reason for the return to that site was because I realized that on ACR I was facing three times as many players in the $1.10 tournaments to get only double the amount of money up top because they pay so many spots out and for roughly the same buyin. Oh well if they want to have that kind of attitude to hell with them. ACR has a much better selection of tournaments even for those of us with small bankrolls.

So back to ACR for me and this time it would be permanent. I got my Bitcoin all straightened out so time to start utilizing that form of payment to establish a history of Bitcoin transactions, but according to some reliable sources I need to set up with a third party as well. I noticed deposits over to ACR from Coinbase are coming with a 12.9% fee. Sending money to the bank account is considerably lower so any future deposits will be done via MoneyGram since ACR will give me my Moneygram fees back from what I understand and I will utilize Bitcoin for the withdraws. The bottom line is I ended up starting June with a bankroll of $100 exactly. 

My time on ACR this year from January through May 31st has not been a profitable one. 
MTTs:  ($108.15)
SNGs: 23 for 60:   ($15.11)
Cash Games:  ($53.91)
Bonus:  $82
Rakeback:  $14.21
Casino:  ($5.15)

Sportsbook: $27.79

Net Total:  ($58.32)

Don't even ask what I was doing in the cash games when I have sworn off of them but at the time I figured hey a different site maybe something will happenen. It happened all right but in the wrong direction. Cash games just have such a higher variance than tournaments, but I tried and I move on. 
Obviously my biggest concern is my performance in tournaments. You would think that with them paying 18% and 20% of the fields that I would be crushing it, but that is not the case. a funny thing with tournaments over on ACR is that they have varying degrees of late registration times not to mention various structures.  The decent guaranteed prize pools for a low buyin have either a 3 hour or 5 hour late registrations and in those specifically I have lost just over ($106).  Here is the breakdown when it comes to these late registration times.

1 Hr:  $32.28
15 for 55 / 27% / 37% ROI 

1.5 Hrs:  ($27.78)
10 for 52 / 19% / (- 31%) ROI 

2 Hrs:  ($1.28)
20 for 69 / 29% / (-1%) ROI 

3 Hrs:  ($80.54)
3 for 34 / 9% / (- 89%) ROI 

5 Hrs:  ($25.49)
1 for 13 / 7% / (- 74%) ROI 

Now I grant you the sample size is not large but there is a definite pattern to this. 3 hour and 5 hour late registrations are atrocious for some reason.  A combined for 4 for 47 and losses totaling over ($106).  I don't know what the exact reason has been for the poor performance from January through May. It could be the time of the late registration, it could be the fact that those tournaments have hundreds of entrants in them and I just have not run deep yet, it could be I was not observing correct bankroll management as in playing $3.30 tournaments with about $50 or $60 on the account and the Poker Gods decided to bite me in the ass over that maneuver, and it could also be as far as the overall picture goes for these five months that I was playing the majority of these when I was going through my period of depression. 

Obviously my mind was not 100% on things. I'm not looking for an excuse, but more so a reason and I really feel that being as depressed as I was with my mind not totally on things that was the major reason for my poor performance. Since I am out of that depression and back to my fully optimistic happy-go-lucky self that has that feeling within mind and spirit of complete invincibility, the only way I was going to find out for sure was to see how June would go. If all of a sudden I started turning profits even if they were small profits because of the low buy-in amounts I'm forced to play that would go a long way in telling me one way or the other.

After the first 5 months I am showing a profit this year, but the profit is only a little over a couple of hundred bucks taking into consideration the over $500 in online earnings and the ($276) in live losses thus far and withdrawals of $169.95 in which had nothing to do with having fun but had everything to do with either half the buyin on a half action live stake tournament or just putting food on the table at the end of the month when things ran a little short.  However, although I have very little left over at the end of the month anymore, I think I've created a monthly budget where I will not have to touch my poker money.  I must admit however, I do believe participating in those half stakes was a mistake in of itself.  Playing a tournament sporadically here and there is not usually going to add up to profits and I think I am much more likely to show some live profits if I can string four or five tournaments played in consecutive days so stepping forward that is the primary goal.

So it's time to build and build some more, but what will be the precise monetary goal here on ACR and what exact bankroll management plan do I want to employ. With so little left over in my regular monthly finances it is imperative that I protect my bankroll to the extreme and this means setting up a bankroll management plan where I am almost sure not to tap out because my bankroll is not easily replaceable and at the same time being able to go out and play live poker while at the same time keeping enough online to go back and do that as well if needed or for the days I just don't physically feel up to being out and about because those days do happen. 

ACR is an offshore site I believe in Nicaragua somewhere so therefore it is not a place where I want to keep a thousand dollars on it or even several hundreds of dollars so periodic withdrawals and then stashing that cash offline is going to be something that I am going to be doing. I would be okay with leaving $300 on at all times. And therefore feel that everytime I make a hundred dollars over that I will withdraw it maintaining that $300 online account balance. 

I have decided to go with a bankroll management plan that utilizes an average buy-in calculation which is calculated on a daily basis utilizing the average buyin of the tournaments that I plan to play. 50 seems too low and 100 seems ultra-conservative especially when the tournaments I'm dealing with are paying 15% to 20% of the entrants.  When I look at the tournaments in the morning that I wish to play that day, I add them all up and see how much they will cost, divide them by the number of tournaments that are intended to be played giving me my average buyin for that day. Provided I have started the days poker with at least 75 of those average buy-ins in my bankroll, then I can play those tournaments that I planned on playing.  However, if I am so much as a dollar short of that amount I will have to readjust my days' plans. I can go with this 75 average buyin plan, but I must be extraordinary strict with myself, no excuses, no ifs, ands, or buts and I think by utilizing this strict adherence to this bankroll management plan I will be able to not only protect my bankroll, but take shots at the various $2.20, $3.30 and even $5.50 tournaments here and there while I build, build, and build some more. 

There are five standard $1.10 tournaments that I play each day so as an example say I wanted to play those five and I wanted to add a $3.30 tournament in there that would cost a total for the day of $8.80. Now we divide that by the total number of tournaments that covers which in this example would be 6 giving me the average buyin which would be $1.466666. Which I always round up to the next penny which would be $1.47. We take that $1.47 and multiply it by 75 and in this example in order to play those tournaments I planned out I would have to start the day with a bankroll of $110.25. If my bankroll is only $110, because of the strict strict adherence I would have to formulate a different approach for that day. Some may find that kind of adherence very silly, but I believe that not only will it help me now, but it will help me down the road. 

So, it has already been established that if I'm going to play some live tournaments I want to be able to play at least a few of them consecutively to hopefully have a better chance of a deep run or two and establishing some sort of live bankroll. The question I need to answer it how many is that and then I can figure out how much I need to earn before I make that run. Now a week's worth would be about 12 but I'm not even looking for that. I'll be happy giving myself half that number, a 6 shot run at it.  Total buyins would be $420 and add another $80 for traveling and eating expenses, so a nice round figure of $500. So my initial goal is a bankroll of $800 in which I can withdraw $500 for some tournaments at the Golden Nugget and still leaving myself $300 online which is what I want to do and mentioned previously.

So let's talk about June. Over the course of the first 8 days I took one of those days off completely and on another one I played only a single tournament but the remainder of the time was a full slate of tournaments which for me usually means 6 to 9 a day. After the first 8 days of the month of June total earnings are $22 with $20.45 of that coming in regular tournaments which are non private tournaments because there's a variety of different private tournaments I play such as rebuy freerolls, regular freerolls, and actual buyin private tournaments so I separate the two distinctions, but in the regular multi-table tournaments earnings are at $20.45 in the first eight days.  I look at the amount and am pretty much disgusted, but the problem is I'm looking at the amount of dollars that I am making. As it turns out I should be happy with this performance.  In the first 8 days in these regular tournaments I am 16 for 43 in the money which is an ITM of 37%. That $20.45 that I have earned is from a total of $53.47 in buyins which gives me an ROI of 38%. I believe these numbers would be considered respectable by anybody, but I keep looking at the amount of 20 lousy dollars, and I need to stop doing this, because if I continue, I know me, and I'm going to get frustrated and start jumping buyins by adding a few $3.30s and maybe a $5.50 mixed in on a bankroll of less than $130 and that is not acceptable under any circumstances. So instead of simply looking at the fact I've only made a total of $22 in 8 days, I'm going to try to not remember that that is less than $3 a day grinding tournaments for hours on end and instead I'm going to look at my ITM percentage, my ROI percentage, and just look at this as taking one step at a time, but believe me, it is much easier said than done.

Here is tomorrow's schedule.  I ended today with a bankroll of $122.  I also wanted to add in the 12:15 p.m. $2.20 PLO8 tournament for tomorrow  but after figuring the average buyin and multiplying it by my minimum of 75 it would require a bankroll of $123.75 so I am $1.75 short.  Although tempted to do so I will not make up some excuse as to why I can get away with it, I will simply not play that tournament just yet. I also do not include that $0.11 tournament as part of the average buyin because it's so low it would totally skew the numbers and not in a good way.

415pm: $0.11 NLH $100 Gtd
435pm: $1.10 NLH KO
445pm: $1.10 PLO 6-Max $100 Gtd
530pm: $1.10 NLH $50 Gtd
545pm: $2.20 NLH KO $50 Gtd
645pm: $3.30 NLH $500 Gtd
720pm: $1.05 PLO8 Rebuy
745pm: $1.10 NLH 6- Max KO

I also play the 1145pm PLO8 6-Max KO at times, but since it's not an every night happenstance it is not included in my average buyin calculations.

Well, it's not a pretty picture not by a long shot, but I never surrender and I never give up. If anybody can make something happen with this I know I can. I know I have readers out there shaking their heads saying it's not going to happen, but as far as I'm concerned it's already a sure-fire certainty. As long as my monthly budget can hold out giving me the opportunity not to touch this poker bankroll then there is no question about it, it's going to happen.

Finally the personal financial update. I've alluded previously in this post as to how I'm having less money available to me for the remainder of the month after bills and expenses are paid and this is why and what has happened. After being on disability for a couple of years now I was finally eligible and at the same time forced to be switched over to Medicare. There was no choice in the matter and in the process of this I lost certain things which were helping me out and because of the loss of these services my monthly expenses have increased. As for the actual insurance I'm covered 100% on anything and everything, but after everything is figured for the money that needs to be spent on a monthly basis whether by choice or whether by necessity, if I do not owe anybody an outstanding loan, I have about $70 left over for the remainder of the month.  Because of the switch I lost access to a PCA so money will have to be spent on Lyft to do shopping each month, I lost free prescriptions so money will have to be spent for co-pays on that each month, then of course there's my little baby girl Diamond my kitty cat and she cost me a certain amount of money each month, but as far as I'm concerned having her here is simply priceless and you'll never hear me complain about the money I spend on her, but the fact of the matter is it does add to the monthly expenditure and as I said after all the sudden done I only have about $70 left so even my tiny $122 bankroll that I ended tonight with would be somewhat difficult to replace all at once. It also leaves very little room for socializing. Obviously the most intelligent thing to do would be to continue to add this to the bankroll, but of course I like to get out and see friends from time to time, maybe grab a quick bite to eat, maybe someone is coming into town so I can meet up with them and have a drink, but as you can see there's just not much for these things and certainly not enough for all of these things. Careful decisions and choices have to be made.

It's not forever however, because when I turn 50 at the end of October I am eligible for what they call the disability widowers benefit. My late wife made more money in her working days than I did in mine and therefor her disability payment, if I remember correctly, was about $1,200 maybe a little more and the way I understand it, this disability widowers benefit will give me either what I am getting now or what she was getting whichever is higher. I won't get both, but I will get one or the other and if I am right in my understanding of all of this my disability payments beginning as early as November could be increased by over $400 a month. Obviously this is still five months away, but it's better than not having anything to look forward to. However, for the next five months there will simply be a lot of grinding, a lot of adding whatever I can to the bankroll with the very little left over each month, and very little socializing.

Well that's going to wrap this one up for now. Don't count me out, in fact never count me out, because I plan to thrive.  it may take awhile, but I plan on nothing but success in the long run. Until next time take care everyone and I'll see you at the tables.

Bankroll:  $122
Goal:  $800
Progress:  15%